I love Lewis

I may have quoted some of these before, but they are worth repeating:

"God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: it is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world."

"God is not proud...He will have us even though we have shown that we prefer everything else to Him."

"Love is something more stern and splendid than mere kindness."

"'You come of the Lord Adam and the Lady Eve,' said Aslan. 'And that is both honour enough to erect the head of the poorest beggar, and shame enough to bow the shoulders of the greatest emperor in earth.'"

"Nothing is yet in its true form."

"If you are really a product of a materialistic universe, how is it that you don't feel at home there?"

"The road to the promised land runs past Sinai."

"It may be better to live under robber barons than under omnipotent moral busybodies."

"The most valuable thing the Psalms do for me is to express the same delight in God which made David dance."

"'How can I step out of [God's] will save into something that cannot be wished?'"

"These things are not strange, Small One, though they are beyond our senses."

*Sighs, returns to rocking back and forth in the corner anticipating how much her finals are going to kill.*

Eastern Homes and Western Hearts

And so we begin to wrap up one of the most difficult years of my life. It's a little sad when you only have ten days left and you really aren't sure you can make it. :-/ Well, I stuck out my freshman year, and I'm honestly still totally up in the air about whether or not I can make it for four years. I think I'll have to because I have such great friends that I couldn't bear to leave, and where else will I find an Ancient Languages major? But there are so many things I have trouble with here. I'm really not that great at the actual school part of things, believe it or not, plus I'm finding more and more to dislike about the administration and the society/culture of Wheaton. How come we have five million chapels about drinking problems but never address problems of pride? Why do we spend so much time talking about "sick lobby couples" but never take time to talk about hypocrisy? Why do I feel that (aside from my closest friends here) I need to call up my non-Christian friends to have a conversation that is free of judgement? I'm really unsure about things right now, and well Mom and Dad, being unsure makes me feel like all I'm doing is wasting your money...I don't think it has been wasted though, with how much I've learned about myself and the friends I've made, that has been worth it.

I think alot of the realizations I've come to can be summed up by this:
I have no doubts about Christ. I have some serious doubts about Christians. More specifically, the Evangelical Right. Which makes Wheaton kind of a hard place to be...I have a love/hate relationship with this college.

Ha, how's that for an update? Oi...

Ya gotta know when to hold 'em and when to fold 'em

Can I just say how much I enjoy college life?

Poker games that last until 4 A.M. are awesome. Especially when you win money. We have a $1 buy in. I won a bunch, bought out my initial dollar and played with my profit, lost that, bought back in, was down for a while, came back, and ended up with $1.72 profit.

Best hand of the night: I had a 4/6 suited, the flop was two 4's and a 6. FULL HOUSE BOYS! I brought Jaryd all in, Skizz was out and suggested we flip our cards since no more betting could be done. I was only too glad to show them my lovely hand. :) I won about five hands in a row toward the end and was robbing Jaryd of lots of money on every one. The guys were all proud of me, being the only girl and doing so well. :-D

We ended the game at 4, then drove over to Los Burritos for a late night snack. Mmm, a quesadilla bought with poker profit tastes that much better.

Perhaps my lovely brothers would enjoy losing some money to me when I come home?

Well not too much else is going on over here...most everyone has been reduced to a little clock in their head that is counting down til their last final. I can't wait to come home!